SHE WHO ENTANGLES MEN

August 18, 2014

CAN’T WAIT FOR MY CHRISTMAS GIFT THIS YEAR!!!

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,F1,FAMILY,LOVE,MY DAUGHTER,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 10:12 am

i love my unborn

My doctors said it was not possible for me to conceive as I am suffering from ovulation problems. I had to go through a lot of medication, therapy and observation. So I told my sweet husband Ali Dadi that when we started dating. I was honest and told him I am not ready and will not go through doctors pumping me up with medicines! I told him there is huge chance we will not have any children.

His answer was: If it’s not meant for us to have a child I have you and we have Iida… That is enough for me!

And he really meant it!! 🙂

 

It gave me comfort and made me get on with my life with him not worrying that he will ever ask from me to go through any medical frustration with medicine and doctors! And so almost 4 years passed… He never asked me to visit doctors unless I got really sick… and a day came when I was not well… I was bleeding not normally, gaining weight without eating, and I was over depressed. It was time to see a doctor… I went to American mission hospital where the General doctor directed me to OBS & GYN department to see Dr. Alka Gupta who was on duty and free that time.

 

I sat next to her desk while Ali waiting very worried out side. She asked very few short questions.

And suddenly she said: well nothing to worry about!!! You are pregnant. 🙂

I said: It’s not possible Doctors, not one or two but three told me I cannot get pregnant without medical assistance…

She smiled so friendly and said: Well Bahrain has it’s own magic. Lay down and I’ll prove it to you!

I was bleeding so did not believe a word she said until I saw a pea sized little thing…

Dr. said with amazing care: That is your baby.

I started crying not sure why when she looked into my eyes and asked: Do you love your husband?

I said: So much!

She said: then you have the answer to this…

 

Baby was conceived on our anniversary… On F1 Grand Prix Race day… Looking at the photos of that day reminds me of how happy and in love I am with Ali and with our life together! Baby was conceived with love… The baby is the fruit of Love.

 

I haven’t felt this way over 15 years ago!!!

 

I felt I love a person that is not in this world yet… Talk to my tummy… Keep touching my tummy and smiling… I remember I felt this way 15 years back and never thought I will feel it again. And this time I have someone who really shares this experience with.

 

I have Ali and Iida… I am so happy and in love with all 3…

 

Can’t wait for my Christmas gift this year!!! My Christmas baby and my sweet husband and daughter next to me what Santa bringing us this year!!

February 14, 2014

I ADVISE YOU TO CHOOSE TO BE SEEN WITH FOR SOCIALIZING!

Filed under: BAHRAIN,FAMILY,FOOD,LOVE,MY DAUGHTER,PERSONAL,PLEASURES,SAD,WORK — by noracassandra @ 10:20 am

friends

So I have been in this business for some years now…

 

My uncle is a chef who wrote few famous cooking books back in Finland… I and my family are into food for years as I found it comes all the ways from our great-grandfather who was an Italian Chef that worked for an aristocratic Russian Family LONG time ago…

 

My daughter is 14 and her cooking is unbelievable… My mum, Aunts, Cousins and of my sweet grandmother has always been over creative in food making…

 

I was married to a very talented Chef for 6 years which also helps to develop my taste and love for kitchens…

 

My daughter at age of 3 when was asked where would she like to eat and that she had the choice to ask any restaurant she wanted, she asked for the nice restaurant that served those nice Snails and Spicy stake… I knew she got her special love for flavors from her mother!!

 

Time passes and I am still in this field more and more into pastry and cakes these days. It is beautiful! Full of Art and Flavors. It is even giving me the urge to study cooking, but not to work in the kitchen but I just have the urge to know even more!!!

 

I met few famous Chefs through my working years… I have to say my favorite is the Australian Chef Greg Malouf Who I read his article many years back even before meeting… A Good Cook knows by smell if his/her food missing something. That saying was told to me by my ex-husband who himself was reason for me to follow Greg Malouf… I remember I was so stressed… Sweaty… Nervous to meet him in my work place few years back…  

 

Yesterday I met another famous (show man) Chef Buddy Valastro From Cake Boss… Ok not my favorite man and not sure I can really call him a Chef… But he is talented in making HUGE cakes… His show on TV is more family oriented show like American Chopper and Hogan Knows Best… But still my husband, my daughter and myself we do like watching it if it’s on TV…

 

I realized one thing though… As Chef Greg Malouf came in to our premises he was accompanied with professional humble nice people… They were giving him even better image than already been built-in my head… While Chef Buddy Valastro came with BAGS OF **** who are full of themselves and so disrespectful. As a result they affected his image in my mind from being a talented young man (one year older than myself) who is funny and pleasant to see and changed him to show-off arrogant, full of himself of an image…

 

I still shock his hand and gave him my card and told him it was a pleasure to have met him… But it wasn’t even close to the pleasure of meeting Greg Malouf…

 

All I’m trying to say… Choose the people who you are with they can lift your image from ZERO to Million or Drop it down from a Million to ZERO!!!I advise you to choose to be seen with for socializing!

Hyvää Ystävänpäivää !!!

June 30, 2013

CLEAR LINE DRAWN BETWEEN WORK AND FAMILY!!

Filed under: BAHRAIN,FAMILY,PERSONAL,SAD,WORK — by noracassandra @ 2:30 pm

I come to work every day, put my hand on a steward’s shoulder and look at his eyes and ask him how is he today… Sadly I’m bad with names so I did not remember his name, but the smile I gave him, my gentle tap on his shoulder and question about how he was were so true that made him smile and eyes lid. He carried on his work.

 

I went to the kitchen and saw one of the ladies so busy deep in her cake make with a slight frown on her face (this one I remembered her name) so by name spoke to her told her good morning a passed my hand on the arm to make sure she lifted her eyes up and looked at me and suddenly smile was placed her face returning to work instead of the slight frown…

 

I walk deeper to the kitchen to see the chef with tired look and a loud AHHH coming out of him before I hug him with a smile and tell him good morning chef… Smile!!! It’s a good day. Suddenly he was smiling and seemed ready for work!

 

Human touch… A true friendly smile. Very sincere how are you today makes work family and loving atmosphere…

 

When you are someone like me or someone who works with me a person who leaves his family and social life behind to work 10-12 hours daily you need to make your work more of a family. More of a comfort zone where you can talk, smile joke and hug… Have a family love running around between everyone to make people work and stay for love, not simply work for salary.

 

Unfortunately my believes do not work in this country. I was told I was unprofessional and never to exceed a hand shake with anyone working. I can do that! But that will change from my work family to work colleague… That will change for me caring about a stranger I do not remember his name simply because he is just someone who works under the same roof, but has nothing to do with me… I will always care as human being, but I will want to run back home to me FAMILY now… Do not expect me to want to stay 1 hour or even 30min extra with someone I can’t call family!!

 

I will miss my brothers that I made at work who now are changed with in one day into work colleagues… I will miss joking and making the day easier for my staff and work collogues… But always look up at the bright side… Now there is a clear line drawn between WORK and FAMILY!!! And when you will ask me who do you want to spend more time with, which do you care of more… It will be FAMILY not WORK!!!

April 26, 2013

I SAID YES… IN FRONT OF KIMI RÄIKKÖNEN’S CAR!!!!!!!

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,F1,FAMILY,FRIENDS,LOVE,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 4:42 pm

dreams come true

“Who said F1 is all about Metal, Oils, Amazing Cars and Fights For Podium??” Said Fabrizio “It’s also about Romance and love!”  He gave me a big hug and congratulated me!!

He said that to me after Jo Bauer has just congratulated me in person.

21. April. 2013… Was the most perfect day in my last many years…

I was a Scrutineer For GP2 and observer and trainee for F1 Scrutineer which allowed me to get on the grid for the first time in my life while F1. I was in cloud 9 as they say… I was doing my job, but still overwhelmed and excited of my dream coming true and being there where the race will start in 15 minutes…

God I was not ready to find my love Ali Dadi pulling me for the 3rd time to Kimi Räikkönen’s car and stands in front of it. I was standing literally 75 cm from the Kimi Räikkönen’s car, while Kimi was behind me getting ready putting on his gear. When  Ali Dadi held my hands  “This is how it all started, this is what brought us together.” He Said… Then went down on one knee. “I love you and would love to spend the rest of my life with you!! Would you marry me?”

I was in shock. Totally blown away. Not sure how to feel. Excitement, Love, and Overwhelming feelings I didn’t know even existed in me! Tears falling out of my eyes… Couldn’t stop them… I SAID YES!!!

How can I say no if Charlie Whiting approved of my engagement before I did myself… Well I would have said yes even if no one else approved… But Charlie Whiting and Shaikh Salman Bin Isa helped in my approval even more!!! 🙂

I would love to thank all friends, family, BIC staff, marshals  and the whole FIA officials and personal that made my dreams come true on F1 Grid… In front of Kimi Räikkönen’s car…

I am no longer in cloud 9 I’m flying in cloud 12 very happy… I am not just getting married to the most amazing man in the world, but also spending my life around Metal, Oils, Amazing Cars and Fights For Podium, BUT ALSO Romance and love!!!

April 1, 2013

I THINK SOUL-MATES… ARE……….

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,FAMILY,FRIENDS,LOVE,PAST,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 5:24 pm

soul

I was talking about love to a friend of mine.

 

After reading Brida by Paulo Coelho as I advised him 2 years ago, he seemed to be wondering about soul-mates. So he asked me of what I thought of it…

In my life, after Brida and few other books… I did get to a conclusion we have many soul mates. Some are meant to help you through few months, some for years and some for life time. And some to help you just for few days. Doesn’t mean they are not meant for you or they are not your soul-mate, it only means they were there for a reason in your life building and your life path.

Ali I love a lot. And yes I feel he is the one. He makes me smile. He knows to handle my difficult days and moments… and believe me I am SO DIFFICULT… When no one else in the world that I have met was able to do so.

He is 5.5 years younger than me, but I do not feel that. And to be honest I felt this way (or thought I did) towards someone else before who was some years older than me which my feelings lasted few months, and a man who was my age which my feelings lasted for around a year… So those two men came in different times where I was in need for them, to show me the path, to show me lessons and maybe to teach me about my own self! So their time passed. Doesn’t mean I stopped loving them but my love for them changed, they were not my soul-mate anymore.

Do I miss anyone from the past? Yeh sometimes I would miss something or someone, but would I leave Ali for that if I get the chance to have it back? My answer is still NO…

Every now and then someone passes, maybe reminds me of something I miss. Or gets me excited in a way or another… I take step back and think… This person is he worth loosing Ali for? The excitement he offers is it worth leaving my life and love for Ali… Answer still today comes to my head and it’s NO…

So maybe Ali is the final path in my relationship life for me… my lasting soul-mate… But do I believe beyond reasonable doubt that this will last forever??? NO… There is always a chance his time ends and I have some other soul mate to go another path with. Or he would have another soul-mate to another path with.

I’ll give you an example… My mum is married 3 times and divorced 3 times… Her sister (my Aunt) has been with her husband for 41 years… I asked my mum about my aunt’s secret and everyone else’s who lasts so long with one person as now I see my Ali’s parents. She told me that there is no such thing as easy path and unconditional love. There has been for sure someone younger, cuter, lovable, exciting or promising that has passed through both of their lives and paths… And if not someone passing through their lives it would be the difficulties that must have faced them through the way… She did not mean someone cheated nor had sex with someone else… But that they had to stop… they had to make the hard decision… Do I choose my long life partner, or this another life that looks more fun?? They chose… They had to choose one way!! They are still together shows what way they chose!!! Some people can’t continue together for some reasons, some people choose easy way out but that is their right to choose, we cannot force someone to live a life they did not choose!!

I am not good hiding my past so everyone knows who I am… I am loud, clumsy, a mess, and really difficult with my unbelievable mood swings… Ali loves me the way I am… He thinks my bad side is worth handling because my good side is worth keeping… And I think the same about him.

I think soul-mates… are partners that make you feel good for being WHO YOU ARE… Same time you love them for WHO THEY ARE…

 

I truly hope he is my for everlasting soul-mate!!

 

 

July 24, 2012

Being someone’s first love is great, but to be their LAST is beyond PERFECT!!

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,FAMILY,FINLAND,LOVE,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 11:13 am

So they tell Ali how come… She was married before and had been in love before!!

And they tell me how come… you are not his first love!!!

I say… I met a man who I never intended to fall in love with. I don’t think it was his plan to fall in love with me either. I am not for his culture even if I understand it as my father’s families are Sheat Muslims. But end of the day I do not believe or follow their believes.

I am not sure why me when he have had such lovely women in his life. And he had many others available waiting for a sign from him to ask them out.

I fell for Ali’s family before meeting them, now that I have met them and actually moved in to live in the same house with his parents I have to say I was wrong… They are not at all as nice a wonderful and sweet as I thought THEY ARE MUCH BETTER AND SWEETER AND LOVING. They are AMAZING.

I met some cousins, which I like and I am actually going shopping tomorrow with one for sweets for my trip to Finland. I am happy with what I have chosen and what have come to my life after falling in love with Ali.

He will be joining Iida and me in our trip to Finland where he will love my family and friends. Hoping he will like them as I love his family and friends!

In the end of the day Being someone’s first love is great, but to be their LAST is beyond PERFECT!!

July 22, 2012

I hope Ali Dadi will love this trip

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,FAMILY,FINLAND,FRIENDS,LOVE,MY DAUGHTER,PERSONAL,PLEASURES — by noracassandra @ 12:01 pm

I can’t wait to see my mum, friends and family… only few days left and I will be breathing that air I missed!

But this time I’ll be with the man I love. Ali Dadi is joining Iida and me on this trip. So much in plan not sure what we can and can’t do in this short time we are there!

We are even visiting Sweden! How we will manage to do all what are planning to do!? 😛

I can’t wait for my mum to hug me!! I can’t wait to go out with Emmi!! I can’t wait to go for the Cruise to Sweden with Kerttu!!! I can’t wait to see my little niece and my sister Sara and talk about Bahrain!!! And now knowing we have family gatherings at my Aunt Anna-Liisa’s place made me so happy!!! 

I hope Ali Dadi will love this trip. Hoping he will love my Family and friends! Well… I’m sure he will love everyone because he loves me!

May 18, 2012

diet for 10 days

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,F1,FAMILY,FOOD,LOVE,MY DAUGHTER,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 11:35 am

I’m going once again on diet for 10 days… I hope! 😛

I had a lunch… Actually 2 lunches with Ali’s parents in the last week.

What I said about them in couple of posts earlier was assured for me even more. I also got to meet Ali’s eldest brother who was he also a very respectful nice person but very quiet. I think it to do because he did not expect a stranger (ME) to be present in his parents’ house. His kids were lovely and well I was glad to see also very familiar faces around as well. And I got to watch ½ of Spanish Qualifying with very interesting people who seemed all were into the F1 which made me very happy! 😀

The food though… The food is just too good to be true! I am glad I do not live in that house or I will make Ali’s head explode from complains of being FAT… I mean I do complain and give him constant headache now being the way I am… But I have to say again the FOOOOOODDDD… That food is good! As Ali’s mum said you got to dive in the fish today (All different fish dishes)!

Lucky me I got to eat again couple of days ago… This time it was Persian style stew with lamb and small home-made kebab on the side with white rice…… AHHHH…

Ok. So I looked at my body yesterday when was enjoying my one-day spa (once a week Routine)… And I have gained weight! So now back on diet for 10 days… But how when there is so good food I’m invited to??? 😦

 

April 17, 2012

Ali… You are lucky!!!

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,FAMILY,LOVE,MY DAUGHTER,PERSONAL — by noracassandra @ 2:45 pm

A woman… Religious Muslim. Loving mother. Very hard-working.

A man… Also Religious Muslim. Strict Father but Deeply Caring. And also amazingly hard worker.

They got together many years ago and had together 7 Sons. Yeh that reminds me I never got to read the famous Finnish story (7 Brothers).

Ok back to my story. So these two people had 7 sons. Lived around the world raising them while father studying and working. But mainly their life has been in Bahrain, where the boys went to most years of their schools and grew up.

I have met personally 6 of those 7 and spoken to 5 of those 6 long conversations. I have to say I was shocked. I sued to think if you come from a religious Muslim family you would be against all other ways of living and other believes. But what I saw was respect. I saw educated MEN. Respectful and strong. All can take responsibilities and lay it over their shoulders with great strength.

Then came the day where I met the mother and father. And that was the day where I understood where did that respect, thinking, love and great personally came from.

The father was bit quite and studying me. But head high and great presence. He spoke little but meant a lot. What an educated man. I saw his respect even though he knew my life and believes are not the kind he would actually approve on for himself.

The mother was so sweet. Nice and loving. She kept showing love I don’t get unless from my own mother or my grandmother. She made even cry as I miss that feeling so badly.

This was when I really understood how it is not a religion… not a culture… not believes the name nor money that makes who you are… it all start with PARENTS!! And those two had my respect before meeting them… Had my good words every time they came to conversations… Got my admiration when ever I met one of their sons… And got my true pure love when I met them…

Their sons are lucky to have them. I push Ali even more to spend time with them even if it means not having him all for myself on my day off… And I keep reminding him to ask them if they need anything because I know when I ask their pride will always say no need for anything.

Ali… You are lucky!!!

February 26, 2012

I will not say Happy Birthday to you

Filed under: ALI DADI,BAHRAIN,FAMILY,FOOD,LOVE,PERSONAL,PLEASURES — by noracassandra @ 8:52 am

This was written 2 days ago.. but as I got net today I was able to publish it today!

It’s your birthday again. Last year I had nothing but my heart and love to offer but I felt it was not enough.

This year I have bought you a watch… Iida and I bought you headphones… We got you cards… I bought you clothes… Planned a whole surprise dinner in Zoe… And planning to take you to movies day after with Iida… Still not enough!!

I love you and I’m so happy to have shared hard times with you… Good times… Boring times and exciting times… You make me smile like no one ever does. You make me relax like one ever was able to do. You make Iida happy and return she keeps reminding how amazing man you to make sure my love to you just would keep on growing.

I don’t think any money, any gifts or any words could describe how grateful I am to God to have given me you… I can’t explain how this world is lucky to have someone like you walking in it. So I will not say Happy Birthday to you… But I will say Congratulations world for having this day when Ali Dadi was born.

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