July 6, 2014
May 18, 2012
I know 2 posts in one day is something I haven’t done for years… But I saw something reminded me of sometime from the past… and of people i have met and heard of lately… so I had to write!!!!
So it was… A stranger on your steps. Looking exactly like a person you never wanted to inter your house. But you welcome them as you have been taught the ways to do so. You great them with respect you were brought up with. You offer them something to drink. You serve them some of your humble bread. You never ask them to stop expressing who they are and you study them without them noticing.
You like what you hear, you stop looking at their clothing at their hair and at their shoes… You look deep in their eyes and souls. You start smiling at them. You laugh at their jokes and agree with their statements.
Suddenly you realize you missed judged them simply for being different. You understand people can different from you are but still great to have around.
This reminds me of my one time work day with Circus Mundus Absurdus in Finland. It was in Imatra. Very scary people I thought… Horrible looking… Trouble act… And I was not comfortable at all around them. After the show they sat with me… Make up was removed off their faces… The blood was wiped of their skin… And funny thing was contact lenses were taken off to put on cute eyeglasses. Conversations started. Suddenly I realized I was talking to an amazing high degree university holder. We went to a club after where we were all invited as guests of honor and music started and it moved this man like I have never seen a white man move before to find out he was before his career a professional ballet dancer. Ballet, philosophy, kindness and sweetness were no what expected from men looking like they did. Well I was wrong! I realized I had the human’s bad habit to judge by look and say the book can be judged by it’s cover… I realized I was wrong doing so.
Today when someone comes by looking like … well I rather not use labels… I will simply say who am I to judge? And what if this person is much higher, more beautiful, smarter or simply much more good inside out than I would ever be? Who am I to call names people simply because they look different or come from different background.
Watch this video for inspiration… and think of all the people who judged her because she looked different!
February 24, 2011
You!! I do not know how to describe or tell in words how you make me feel.
I am a very difficult person that no man can stay with for long. You seem to be stronger than I ever thought you would be! You are still around! And I feel you are so much stronger and more loving even.
You make me feel so safe being in your arms. You calm me when I’m angry in ways I never thought a man could! You get me to smile when I am so upset with you or with something you did! You get me all turned on when I think no man or anything could in this world and make me travel the skies each time you make love to me!
I never in my life felt so amazing with a man for this long! You are truly amazing! You came to remind me how life is worth living again! When the only reasons were left were my daughter and the sake of being strong! I was giving up the day you made me laugh! Even now with all the hard times and sad things going on around us in our life and the country, you get me smiling and get me looking at life in a good way!
You ever heard of butterflies in stomach??? Well you gave them to me when we kissed first on August 27th. And still those butterflies keep making me feel funny and nice when you kissed me today when you dropped me to work!
I guess it is true and I am in love! You just called me and asked me if I loved you, and I said a lot. You asked only? I said if you wanted me to jump off the balcony for you!? You said you would be lost then without me! True I won’t jump off a cliff nor a balcony for just being in love and I need to stay well for my little girl… But you give me the strength and believes that I would not get hurt as my wings will come out and I’ll fly.
Your face is memorized in my head and when ever I need to smile I get it out in front of my eyes and see your face and how you look at me and soon the smile on my face again… Thank you!
I thought just to let you know while I am sure I am around alive a little of how I feel with you! And thought to say it on your birthday to make sure you remembered this birthday you were with a woman who is crazy in love with you. So please don’t ask again why is your birthday important! It’s the date when an amazing man who got my soul living again was born!
Happy birthday sweet man of mine! :-*
August 8, 2010
diennah… dana al salem… a lovely young lady i got to know in bahrain through my friends ahmed… talented young lady, actress, model and hostess… who loves rashe al majed!!! 😉 i will see more of her work by time as i’m sure.
this young lady is just 18, she’s been already modeling, acting and hosting many programs. she is so funny and very honest person in real life. off the screen i do think she is a wonderful person to hang out with. her friends are lucky to have someone like her as a friend, and meeting her mum explains a lot.
her mum herself is a wonderful woman, lady and a doctor. when sitting with her feels like sitting with a simple, but so educated and down to earth person. enjoyed talking to her even though it was just for a short while… sure more times will come up and will make me even more impressed!!!
back to young diennah… she can make me laugh and think a lot. a girl who i believe will have even brighter future a head of her… hoping everything goes right for her and all her dreams get to come true. hope to get to do the photo shoot with her soon!!!
another person and reason to love bahrain!!! 🙂
January 19, 2009
So I did it!!! I had it done on Friday… I mean the colon hydrotherapy or the colon cleans!
It wasn’t the most pleasant experience, but I have to admit it wasn’t bad! The unpleasant part in it is the feeling that you need to go to the toilet so bad but you can’t get up! As the have a thin small tube in your rectum and that is not too bad as it’s so thin and you just feel something so small going in but it’s not as bad as I expected!!! 😛
After that the water flow starts… it’s quite warm so it’s quite comfortable, till… Till the feeling starts that you really need to run to the toilet… but of course you can’t! 😛
My therapist explained that a lot of shit came out… shit that are at least few years old… it’s true the words I feel like shit before doing the cleansing… as you are full of years of shit… and I really mean it years of shit!!!
As I found out the walls of large intestines hold a quite big part of the shit that pass through it around the years… I really mean exactly what I’m saying here!!! So all the shit hanging and pilling up on the walls makes the intestine’s muscles hard to work… So by time you start having digestion problems and toilet problems… your shit won’t move as fast as it should in the intestines which will cause it to dry up which makes it hard to move and get out… and the water that should have been inside it vibrate and takes the way it came in from… mouth way… so bad breath also will be unbearable!
In 3 days… I do feel less blotted, but she (the therapist) said it could be my small intestines which are bigger problem… but I have to say bad breath is gone! And I do feel better… and going to toilet is not a nightmare anymore! 😀
So I would advice this therapy to all… and regularly… as in at least once every couple of years!
Oh and an ex-friend once had to write her thesis about this therapy… so she made all researches and found a study done on a woman over 70 and never had the colon hydrotherapy done… so they did it for her to see what they can find… they found traces of medicine she had to take for little time once in her life time… before her 20s… so imagine if you are 30 years like I am… what are the stuff you stuffed your large intestines walls through those years!!! 😉
December 29, 2008
So Christmas went well. Had few nice gifts… 😀 And Iida had bit too many! Hehehe!
Well my good lovely friend Anne is visiting. She is from Finland and long time friend! Great friend we are talking about!!! She is a friend of Emmi and other friends of mine too… glad to have her! As I haven’t seen her for about 3 years! And she couldn’t make it to my birthday party in October! 😀
So we went out with sweet Kia and few other friends on Saturday in Agia Napa… we started in jasmine from there headed to Babylon and from there to car wash… and well ended in piazza then went for early morning snack at 5…
Now a story happened. Of course when Nora Cassandra is out some kind of stories has to happen… I don’t know it might be my crazy energy that attracts them!!! So… I was dancing… oh yeh moving with the grove with Anne on the dance floor in car wash, and… AND!!!! This man seems sober enough! Comes dancing close to me and Anne… ok we ignore as you get many of those… but as I was wearing my new baby look dress and my push up bra my boobs looked great… I mean amazing!!! So he was looking at them and I didn’t really care… but…BUT… he comes closer and puts his eyes like 10cm from my boobs… stairs for like 30sec… takes few steps back and looks at me and smile… now me… I did not smile… I was so pissed off how men could be so disrespectful and disgusting! So… SO!!!! I slapped! I slapped him really hard and looked at him so angry… he almost cries… and looks at me in such a shock… then leaves the night club…
Yep now I feel bit sorry for the man… but maybe next time he would think before doing such things!
October 23, 2008
So this post has to be dedicated to a new… not sure if I can still call her new… but well a fresh friend of mine!!!
Leen… she is from Bahrain… she didn’t have the easiest life… she grow up to be amazing woman! Now I was shocked how much we did have in common… but she made me smile…. I got a lovely (first ever) golden Guess purse from her for my birthday party… like the girl didn’t even know if we were going to be real good friends and she was already spoiling me… well that and 2 tops and lovely time with her made our friendship even stronger… I mean she didn’t even have to get me anything… I liked her from fist time I met her on facebook… total bitch just like me!!! 😀 So here we were great friends to be!!! 🙂
Then we kept in touch… as she had to go back to her country… (Soon I’ll find the way to keep her as I’m planning to keep Emmi here but they don’t know)!!! But she always finds a way to put a smile on my face… she would send me a text message or leave a comment after few days of cut off that makes me crack up a huge smile… and it feels nice!!! She has this sweet big smile that makes her look like a little kid, but still makes her look so much like a woman… she is amazing!!!
Now last night… I was just running through first day of flu… you know little headache, little throat ache, little pain in the body… well you get the picture… I get this message on my facebook saying I think I have some news that will make the flu disappear!!! She continues… I asked a friend of mine if he can get you a free ticket to the F1… he got it… and it’s not a normal F1 ticket… you will join the marshals in the zone!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! Yes that was my reaction… I couldn’t believe getting a ticket to the F1 for free, but also to join the marshals in the inside??? Oh my god!!! So didn’t sleep well… yes dreaming of F1… and here I am today still excited like a little girl! 😀
That was bit about a new friend of mine! LEEN! 😀
Now another news in the other hand… I cut my long hair short!!! 🙂
October 9, 2007
I went today to Dr. Philippos Phlippou! He is a plastic surgeon! I asked about fixing my breasts and my tummy!
After having my daughter in 1999, my breast grow 2,5 sizes then after 2-5 years I lost 1,5 size from that leaving so much empty skin! As the doctor explained, if we take the skin off; then we will have a big scar under my breast in the shape of ┴, but if we fill up the empty skin which in that case will add back the 1,5 I lost from them then I’ll be having a really small scar that will be unnoticeable in less than a year! As I like sunbathing topless and I did topless modeling for body paint then the thought of a smaller scar is better! The problem is; I don’t like big breasts! As the doctor filled my bra with the size of the breast I’ll have (take a bit or add a bit), I did notice it was so big!
About the tummy tuck well I don’t have real fat but all loose skin again! I already have a scar from the cesarean that had having my daughter! He said it’ll be lower but it’ll be bit wider, but it’s so low that it’ll be covered, (unless I decide to walk naked)! 😛
Both operations together will cost me £3000 = €5125, which I think is not bad at all! That includes the 2nights and everything else but the blood tests that come before the operation is done!
So I think I’ll have my brain occupied for a while with the new look that I might decide to get!
August 27, 2007
I know it’s strange to write about my last day on my holiday before even writing about my first one! But I think this day is the days that really stuck on my mind!
My sweet friend Emmi this day would have been yours! So I’ll tell you how it went!
I went to bed at 3am because my friend wanted to spend time with the Greek guy she met! I wasn’t excited to stay awake with them and go for drinks; I just wanted to go to sleep! I woke up at 8 am when she just came back and I got ready for breakfast and then we went out! I had my pink Von Dutch shorts and the triangle Morgan top on! You remember them both, don’t you? So for the people who don’t know them, it means I was practically naked! 😛
We went to look for few more things for my friend Dora that she needed to buy before we leave so we were walking around till about 12pm. She got everything and then I sent her back to the hotel to get some rest as she hasn’t slept for over 36hours! I stayed in town shopping! I was looking for your birthday gift, and I did think of buying you the normal eye till I saw the one I bought! I thought it was perfect! Then I continued walking to go to the shop where I saw the small boxes 2 days earlier! On the way I saw the post cards and took one for you and one for my mum! I bought the box and then went for a coffee all alone to the first café I was in on my first day there! I looked around and for some reason the only person that was on my mind was you! I thought you would love to be there right at that moment with me drinking a frappe! And then I saw the old building and the balcony and windows and I thought Emmi would have giving everything to live in that place! I don’t know why but I think my last day was perfect for being alone walking roads that we would have together and got men trying to get my attention as they did when we were together! That day was yours! I did miss you and I will always miss you! I do hope someday we be living close to each other again!
So before going on my trip S was invited for a lunch on wed 15th which is a church celebration and a DAY OFF!!
We went to this nice small farm in the middle of nowhere! It was hot that day but the breeze helped a lot! I love being in a quit place for a change because I work in Agia Napa which is the crazy party town of Cyprus!
The people were from Nicosia and that was their (run away) spot! They were very nice and lovely people! I, S, Iida and my brother-in-law (Yannis) did enjoy the lunch and the people!