We are here for few days now. Well almost 1 week has passed, but it seemed just few days. The best part we have done so much already!! 
Ali seems to be having fun and Iida asking when are we moving back means she is really loving it.
For me it’s just simple. I’m Loving Finland!!
I can’t wait to see my mum, friends and family… only few days left and I will be breathing that air I missed!
But this time I’ll be with the man I love. Ali Dadi is joining Iida and me on this trip. So much in plan not sure what we can and can’t do in this short time we are there!
We are even visiting Sweden! How we will manage to do all what are planning to do!? 
I can’t wait for my mum to hug me!! I can’t wait to go out with Emmi!! I can’t wait to go for the Cruise to Sweden with Kerttu!!! I can’t wait to see my little niece and my sister Sara and talk about Bahrain!!! And now knowing we have family gatherings at my Aunt Anna-Liisa’s place made me so happy!!!
I hope Ali Dadi will love this trip. Hoping he will love my Family and friends! Well… I’m sure he will love everyone because he loves me!
I never meant for anyone to get hurt with this post… So if you did take it personal please don’t. I simply meant that I know of few people who are talking about me and Ali. And I know many bad things about those people, what they have done in past and doing now… I just do not care what you do in your personal life… and to be honest I really wish you and your family the best in life and for all your sins to be hidden from public and world so you will not be ever hurt.
Ali said something that made me smile… Nora Cassandra, You are so famous that the whole Bahrain has nothing but you to check and talk about… So… I’m Famous!
357 views from Bahrain Alone since February 25th. 2012. WOW… I am Famous here!!
So I guess I will never be able to satisfy the world. And still if it makes you happy and gives you pleasure… and fills up your free time talking about The Famous Nora-Cassandra, I will not hate you nor will get angry at you for doing that!
Peace and love to you all! :-*
A woman… Religious Muslim. Loving mother. Very hard-working.
A man… Also Religious Muslim. Strict Father but Deeply Caring. And also amazingly hard worker.
They got together many years ago and had together 7 Sons. Yeh that reminds me I never got to read the famous Finnish story (7 Brothers).
Ok back to my story. So these two people had 7 sons. Lived around the world raising them while father studying and working. But mainly their life has been in Bahrain, where the boys went to most years of their schools and grew up.
I have met personally 6 of those 7 and spoken to 5 of those 6 long conversations. I have to say I was shocked. I sued to think if you come from a religious Muslim family you would be against all other ways of living and other believes. But what I saw was respect. I saw educated MEN. Respectful and strong. All can take responsibilities and lay it over their shoulders with great strength.
Then came the day where I met the mother and father. And that was the day where I understood where did that respect, thinking, love and great personally came from.
The father was bit quite and studying me. But head high and great presence. He spoke little but meant a lot. What an educated man. I saw his respect even though he knew my life and believes are not the kind he would actually approve on for himself.
The mother was so sweet. Nice and loving. She kept showing love I don’t get unless from my own mother or my grandmother. She made even cry as I miss that feeling so badly.
This was when I really understood how it is not a religion… not a culture… not believes the name nor money that makes who you are… it all start with PARENTS!! And those two had my respect before meeting them… Had my good words every time they came to conversations… Got my admiration when ever I met one of their sons… And got my true pure love when I met them…
Their sons are lucky to have them. I push Ali even more to spend time with them even if it means not having him all for myself on my day off… And I keep reminding him to ask them if they need anything because I know when I ask their pride will always say no need for anything.
Ali… You are lucky!!!
2012…
If this year is really bringing destruction, disasters and even the end of the world this is what I have to say.
I’m turning 34 this year.
I have a daughter that is healthy (enough), 3rd in her class even if it is first ever time for her studying in English and has missed a whole year before this, who speaks reads and writes 3 +1/2 (starting French) languages… Who is a wonderful young lady who helped me so much throughout her 12 years (13 this years)… Who I can speak to as a friend, as a daughter and as (my care taker) Sometimes, ex; when I’m sick.
I have found a man who I love so much. Who makes me feel like a little girl, like a woman, friend, wife and lover all at the same time! A man who makes me to get over my stress (which who ever knows me knows it’s impossible mission)… A man who finds the way to make me smile even when I’m getting my period (worst time of the month to talk to me)… A man who still can make me feel beautiful even when I have a bloated stomach (health problem I suffer from regularly)… A man who I can spend hours talking to with him listening to me and sharing opinions without trying to force his opinion on mine!
I have friends all around the world who actually love me and I love them. Friends that I do not have to ask daily or weekly about but when I need them they are there for me, and when they need me I’m there for them! They might not be more than 15 all together maybe not even 10… But they are real ones!
I have a family… maybe scattered in many countries, but I have family that I dearly love… Some talking to me some not (for past mistakes) but still I love them all. I have a mother that makes all the pain go away with a kiss. I have amazing brothers and sisters who all have grown up to be amazing adults that I am so proud of. I have a father that I hurt a lot for past reasons that I have asked for his forgiveness for the pain I caused him and tried to explain to him the reasons of the pain and anger towards him… That father might not be talking to me but I wish him all the happiness and health! And let’s not forget the rest of my family that always make me feel happy to hear from.
I have a job that I LOVE… I have been called actually a workaholic today. But I can’t help loving what I’m doing and of course the owner of this company is a man if ever needs a kidney I would take one out of me to give him as I think that man I owe him my life!
I have a long past that is full of action, pain, fun, sadness and happiness… Things I did wrong and said I was sorry for. And wrong things happened to me, which I have forgiven!
If this is the end of the world… I will leave this world sad for missing all these great things, but I have to admit I will leave with a smile that God has blessed me a wonderful life and great happiness!
Thank you GOD!
Ramadan, I’m tried; lack of sleep and what they said will be a quiet month at work seems to be one of the busiest.
I love my job… thought of saying that once again.
At last I will reveal out loud where I’m working. I am working now full time at Lilou Pattísseríe. It is amazing!
I am not allowed to say much without consulting the marketing manager but something I have to say is 7 years in food & beverages field I have never been more amazed of how far this field can go.
I started in May and then I got the comment from Ali Dadi that he has never seen me this excited and happy. Of course there are ups and downs as any job but I am truly happy! I enjoy being in kitchens again and for first time ever experiencing sweets… True I have never been a fan of sweets but it is so interesting. Tasting sometimes feels like a challenge specially if I had tasted 2 or 3 different kinds already, then I seem not to have any sense of taste. But I am happy to be able to do it, as Chef Samer (who is such an amazing and creative chef that I never thought I could meet in my life time) asks me to taste and asks for my opinion. So I think I’m doing ok tasting sweets!
There are of course the hot kitchens with all kind of pastas, stakes, Arabic, European, Asian and American kitchens (food)… God knows I could keep going on!
Iida is starting school in September and her birthday is that time, so big plans for her birthday! Hope she’ll have enough friends to invite!
Ali and I are still doing well… ups and downs, stress took us down few times specially with his job being such a pain the last 6 months. But we still survive and find the way in between the hard times to lay down in bed, joke and make love…
So
1 year and 1 month has passed since I moved to Bahrain. I am in love with Bahrain, with Ali, with my work and my little Iida… I guess that counts as a GOOD year! 
I just found sometime to write…
I actually don’t know where to start. So much has happened around me. Political stuff, mental stuff, heart related stuff, work, Iida, Ali.
Well. Politics… I do NOT give my opinion there… As I said in Cyprus before that in Finland and even before that in Kuwait. Wars and political issues always have 2 sides or more… And non I meet even wants to see both sides… As most of the world will say one side has the right, but still there in still the other side… In wars as in Cyprus Turkey’s war people said how bad the Turks were and how they did all the war crimes… They even try to plant hate in the kids’ hearts in schools toward the Turks. I disagreed with that as Iida came to me saying she had to write a school report of the war crimes Turkish Cypriot did to the Greek Cypriots. I simply told her if the teacher allows you to write of the war crimes the Greek Cypriots did to the Turkish Cypriots and vice versa than you can write the report but you are not allowed to take sides in a war happened decades ago! After all each war has it’s victims from both sides. Even if I am a Kuwaiti and love Kuwait and will never agree with Saddam did to Kuwait, I still know that, that war did not end with only Kuwaitis getting hurt. I know Kuwaitis also ended up doing war crimes against Iraqi soldiers and even Iraqi civilians living in Kuwait at that time. In my opinion as a Fin, things should be talked about and found solutions without troubling anyone’s life… But then again if there never were someone who disagrees or protests the world would stop developing! After all how did women in Finland got their strong stand today if it wasn’t for the fight they went through… But still… I will never take sides in fights, conflicts or arguments that clearly are not for me!
I got let go from my previous job because of the mess that happened in Bahrain. I was broke, mentally tired, and not sure even if I would stay in Bahrain. I was so close to move back to Finland but to be honest was so happy things went back to normal and I got a new job!
I have to say Bahrain is back to normal. Yes you see still check points and security police around more than you did 6 months ago, but it’s back to normal. Friends are back to their spots meeting up, Sunni and Sheea friends are still on same table joking and enjoying life and their friendship. So I am staying here and still think Bahrain is really cool and I love being here!!!
I love my new job! I will not talk about it much as I still have 1 more month of probation till I’m settled in. I just got to say I really love Restaurant, kitchen and FRONTLINE positions… So YES back to hospitality and restaurant business!
I’m still in Love with the same man! He is away right now in India which maybe is the reason I am at home and have the time to write as he left me his laptop!
Iida got accepted to AMA school. She went for the entrance exam with Ali. She came out with the teacher, as it seems she got her impressed! She passed the exam with full mark and she was told that she would be put into A class… where they put all their hard-working students to not have bad influence from other students in other classes.
That’s about it for now! I am happy… Alive… In love… Enjoying my new job… And so proud of my little girl!
So it’s been 18 days since I posted last… Have to say a lot has happened… Ali Dadi took 3rd place in his first race in Riyadh and 2nd place in his second race there! There is a BLOG made to follow-up with the WGA Chevrolet Supercars Championship for any news.
I moved to a new apartment. Which is 3 bedrooms + big kitchen (which I am so excited about) + a good size living room + a hall (so walls to be creative on) + entry (small hall which is good for shoe cupboard and hanger for jackets which reminds me of Finland) + 2 toilets (one in my bedroom and one outside between the other 2 rooms and the living room)… Let’s not forget to mention it is 50BD cheaper than the one we were living in which was one bedroom + living room & kitchen together+ one toilet which was inside my room… Iida slept in the living room and I used to hate working in that kitchen! And above all the old apartment was so far from all my friends who all live so close to my new apartment! And another point which is SO IMPORTANT to me is BIC is like 15 min away instead of 30 min!!! I love my new place! 
Now to something more serious… My boss still didn’t provide me with Visa… He always has the answer on top of his tongue saying he is working on it… So even though I was happy to be the Event Coordinator manager I might have to say goodbye to this job as soon as I find somewhere else! 
Good news… My boyfriend and I are still together after 6 months have passed. I have fallen in love and I think he loves me too. Iida and him get a long fine, which makes things so much easier! And I am neither bored of him nor tired of him yet… And the sex is still so amazing!!! I guess I found someone I was hoping to meet long time ago!
I will not envy myself now… So I will say thank you Lord, thank you to my angels and good spirits… thanking the right energies surrounding us… and thanking mostly Ahmed Sami who pushed us together!!
My heart was beating so fast. I wasn’t sure why. So excited all morning! I couldn’t concentrate at work! I don’t know what was coming into me! I was sweating and any one who knows me personally knows how hard it is to get me to sweat! But my ends were still cold! I was not sure if I was feeling cold or hot! My eyes were going around in my head. As if they were looking for something! But nothing! I did not find anything I was looking for! My stomach was starting to hurt and rumble!
Time was getting closer. I kept looking at the time waiting for 4:25. That was the time when his plain was landing! But why is time going so slow????? It was making me so upset! I just want that plain on the ground in Bahrain!
Left work at 3pm (15:00), as my head couldn’t handle anything or think of anything anymore! I couldn’t keep myself busy with work or anything else! Not even with facebook! I kept just looking at the time and doing my count down!
I was at the airport 4:10pm (16:10). I was so early and Jack’s advice was come home, leave the car and let’s go all together when I called him to complain about the parking, which was totally full! But I said that I couldn’t! I can’t leave the airport before seeing him walk out that gate, I thought to myself! So I found a parking place in the end of the world, it felt, but at least it was a parking spot and I couldn’t care less for walking the distance!
And so, I stood there waiting! It showed in the landing schedule that the airplane was 5 min late. It made my heart pound! Why??? I do not want him 1 min late! So I stood there. Waiting! Looking at people saying hellos and hugging, I saw a little young girl that is not even 10 years old hugging some ladies as soon as she was out of the gate and started crying. I saw a young man coming out and going straight through the women who were clearly waiting for him to pass them straight to the old man behind them to kiss him on his forehead and hold his hand and place a kiss on it too. The old man’s eyes shined. I guess they were full of tears! It was a beautiful scene that I just see only usually in movies or read in stories! Never thought I will see it there! It was very touching!
After seeing all those heart touching moments I saw in front of me, I realized those feeling I was feeling all day were natural! When waiting for a person you miss so much. Some one… (I guess I can say love.) I was happy to see Jacks and Iida next to me suddenly, they made bit fun of my messed up emotions and me. They had their laughs and it was time for me to just wait so maybe I could find a hint of his smell before he comes out of that gate! Then suddenly I saw him, my heart was beating so fast and I just wanted to run, but Jacks’ advice that I should control myself in public was keeping me still! I saw Iida running to hug him, I was jealous… I wanted to be the first to touch his skin and feel his hug right after walking out that gate! But true, she is a kid, and lucky her she can run to him and fill his face with kisses and body with hugs and no one can tell her a word! But I could see his eyes were fixed on me even when he was hugging her and kissing her! He walked to me with fast steps! He kissed me then gave me a hug. My face ended up right on his shoulder (specially with the 10cm heals I was wearing). My eyes got filled with tears and I didn’t want to let go! I told him not to ever leave me for such a long time ever again! He looked at me and smiled and answered: I do not want to ever leave you and be alone to go to anywhere for this long period myself ever again. Then took few steps to the back to start saying hi to Jacks and to Ahmed.
Last night I slept well! But I still feel like laying in his arms and not move just to make love again and again and go back to sleep again.
