So Christmas went well. Had few nice gifts… 
And Iida had bit too many! Hehehe!
Well my good lovely friend Anne is visiting. She is from Finland and long time friend! Great friend we are talking about!!! She is a friend of Emmi and other friends of mine too… glad to have her! As I haven’t seen her for about 3 years! And she couldn’t make it to my birthday party in October!
So we went out with sweet Kia and few other friends on Saturday in Agia Napa… we started in jasmine from there headed to Babylon and from there to car wash… and well ended in piazza then went for early morning snack at 5…
Now a story happened. Of course when Nora Cassandra is out some kind of stories has to happen… I don’t know it might be my crazy energy that attracts them!!! So… I was dancing… oh yeh moving with the grove with Anne on the dance floor in car wash, and… AND!!!! This man seems sober enough! Comes dancing close to me and Anne… ok we ignore as you get many of those… but as I was wearing my new baby look dress and my push up bra my boobs looked great… I mean amazing!!! So he was looking at them and I didn’t really care… but…BUT… he comes closer and puts his eyes like 10cm from my boobs… stairs for like 30sec… takes few steps back and looks at me and smile… now me… I did not smile… I was so pissed off how men could be so disrespectful and disgusting! So… SO!!!! I slapped! I slapped him really hard and looked at him so angry… he almost cries… and looks at me in such a shock… then leaves the night club…
Yep now I feel bit sorry for the man… but maybe next time he would think before doing such things!
Ok people… first of all… I really don’t want you to take this personally, nor think I am trying to attack your believes or religion… remember ½ of my family are muslims and I love them truly!
I had a big fight with a friend today! He was telling about how he is happy as he is a muslim, and how I’m not happy because I’m a free spirited woman who is non muslim!!!
First thing came one was how happy I will be when my daughter decides to have sex… now my daughter is 8… she will always be a baby in my eyes… I will not even be able to imagine her having a husband and children… but it’s a fact she will grow up! Now I said I can’t stop her as I believe she has the full freedom and right to do what she wants after an age (here it’s 16-18)… he said so you’ll be ok if she has sex with a man that is his age (now he is 37 so by then it would be 45-47)… now I said no I will not be happy, but I can’t force her not to… and as I learned from my mother I am allowed to tell her I’m not happy about it, but if she is happy, then I am happy that she is happy!!! (now here he says I’m living an unhappy life because I can’t force my daughter to not to do what makes me unhappy)…
Later on he talks about islam and marrying other women… with my respect I did study islam and the woman has to know when he will do that and marry some one else while she is still his wife!!! Right??? Well here her agreed and said his wife is ok with it… now here when I said so you trying to convince me your wife is happy that you are having sex with another woman??? He said yes! Now he got angry when I told him there is no woman on earth that is happy that her husband is with someone else!!! Not even a sick woman that can’t give pleasure to her husband… she will still feel bitter and sad that he had to go with someone else!!!! And as I told him that (ok I was also using dirty words and he going and ******* another woman’s ***** and then coming home to put his **** in her *****)… so it was more of a fight!!!!
Now my question is… you as a man do you really believe your wife is happy (even when says ok you can get married to another) when you are sleeping with another woman????
And you woman… leave the religion aside and tell me the truth… will you be happy if your husband did that???
It might be just me that can’t see how a woman is happy when she is not allowed to complain and I am un happy because I have the freedom of choice and walking out with ½ of the house, car and everything else as well as kids will belong fully to me and he’ll have visiting rights if he ever touched another woman!!!
Please remember i’m NOT talking about islam… but about happiness in one subject!!!
Happy women’s day to all women! 
Christmas time! I always get months of depression before it comes! I never understood why yet! Well wanted to thank the people that send me emails, and posted me wishing me well, and to feel better soon! Thank you!
Now Christmas time reminds me of good things! About good times, loved ones, family and this beautiful world that we are destroying!
Now I remembered this year a story an old man told me in Finland once! I went with my ex-stepfather (the best father in the world for me)… to a Red Cross old peoples meeting… I mean really old, all over 75-80! So one man through the old crowd tells this story he remembers from the war time (with Germany)! He said he still remembers the Christmas Eve when there were lines of both armies ready to fight! And for a strange reason no one started! They found them selves, singing Christmas carols from both sides! They couldn’t betray the holy night of peace!
It made me think of a friend Fast Lane… now why is it that some people still don’t respect this peace? Why do they fight if some one says merry Christmas and is not a Christian! Why? Why do we fight?
My daughter asked me if Muslims believe in god, and Christians believe in god, and many other religions believe in god, why is it that we fight? Why? And I still wonder why do I get depressed!
I went today to Dr. Philippos Phlippou! He is a plastic surgeon! I asked about fixing my breasts and my tummy!
After having my daughter in 1999, my breast grow 2,5 sizes then after 2-5 years I lost 1,5 size from that leaving so much empty skin! As the doctor explained, if we take the skin off; then we will have a big scar under my breast in the shape of ┴, but if we fill up the empty skin which in that case will add back the 1,5 I lost from them then I’ll be having a really small scar that will be unnoticeable in less than a year! As I like sunbathing topless and I did topless modeling for body paint then the thought of a smaller scar is better! The problem is; I don’t like big breasts! As the doctor filled my bra with the size of the breast I’ll have (take a bit or add a bit), I did notice it was so big!
About the tummy tuck well I don’t have real fat but all loose skin again! I already have a scar from the cesarean that had having my daughter! He said it’ll be lower but it’ll be bit wider, but it’s so low that it’ll be covered, (unless I decide to walk naked)! 
Both operations together will cost me £3000 = €5125, which I think is not bad at all! That includes the 2nights and everything else but the blood tests that come before the operation is done!
So I think I’ll have my brain occupied for a while with the new look that I might decide to get!
8 years passed! They passed so fast that I forgot to count! She is 8! I forgot how she looked like as a baby! I forgot a lot of what we went through together!
She was born in Kuwait… bad pregnancy, bad delivery and a very ill child! She never stopped crying! I never stopped thinking how I didn’t want to keep her at the first place! I kept asking why did I get this?! Isn’t what I have been through in the last 15 years enough suffering?
Well now looking back at that; I do think different! She is a great kid! Good girl! Nice, sweet and annoying sometimes! She was my way out of Kuwait! She is the main reason I never went through drugs and the season what kept out of trouble! She kept safer than I kept her safe! She helped me to grow up and be strong, and now I’m helping her!
Iida is 8 years today! Actually it was this early morning! I have to say I am lucky that I have had her! I am lucky I was never able to get rid of her! I am lucky that she forgives her short tempered, crazy mother and keeps saying; I love you mum!
So yesterday I didn’t get my Reflexology done, I’m getting it today! But this is not the big event of yesterday’s news!
I worked from 10am-1pm then went to the beach… Stelios dropped Iida at my mother-in-law’s and brought lunch and came to the beach… It was so hot so we just ate and left even though I was planning to stay for another 1 hour… So we went to one of our favorite cafes and something to cool us down… After that at 3:45pm I headed to work which is 2 minute walk from the café but I wanted my to ride on our bike so we took a longer way! Now all this is not the big even either!
When I got to work and was washing my hair Stelios calls me from his work place… I thought he fell or crashed the bike from his voice!
Stelios: Could you close your work place for 5 minutes?
Me: Why?? What happened?
He: I found Iida here!
Me: Iida? But Iida is at my mother-in-law!
He: Could you just pick her up because she has left her helmet at Helena’s (my mother-in-law) and I can’t give her a ride with bike!
Me: But how did she get there?
He: She walked!
Me: WALKED!!?? All by herself over 3km??? Why did she even leave??
He: Helena wasn’t home and the doors were locked and the neighbors were away and she just felt thirsty so she walked until here to drink!
My hair was dripping so asked him if I could just finish washing my hair the go and he said that was ok…
Now my 7 years old daughter (8 in September) walks over 3 km all by herself it got my mixed feelings! I was having thoughts what if something has happened and such black thoughts! On the other hand I was feeling so proud of her for doing such a brave thing! I was with her for the rest of the evening just being sure she drank enough after that long day of hers! And I took her to McDonald’s for dinner so she could get over the day! At home sent her for shower then massaged her with mixture of relaxing oils that Cheryl has giving me to help with my sleeping problems to relax her body and then sent her to her bed! She is still sleeping and that makes it 10 hours right now! I’m glad she is getting her rest after that big event!
I have to say I had 3 great days!! My friend came from Kuwait with another 2 guys on Thursday and they left on Saturday noon time… Yes 2 days only!! 
I was worried! I kind of felt comfortable with my friend that I didn’t know so well… But the other two guys I didn’t know at all and I was literally freaking out… I was so worried they would remind me of the bad side of Kuwait and how my husband would react to them… But those guys proved me wrong! They reminded me of the good things I loved in Kuwait and they made my husband and daughter fall in love with them! Ok not fall in love but really happy to meet…
2 days is such a short time, and the day they left I was so sad and almost cried few times… But as I told myself I will see them again and how lucky I was to know them I didn’t really get depressed for them going so early! I think the funniest part of the day when they left was when I told Iida (my daughter) that the guys are leaving… she got this really sad face and asked me why did they stay for just one day (she only saw them on Friday) and why can’t they stay for ten weeks!!!! I think she meant ten days not ten weeks…
I want to thank the guys for making me so proud of Kuwaitis and Kuwait and making me and my family so excited and happy for the time they stayed here! I hope to see you all again soon!!
Saturday morning! Just got my Nescafe ready… I miss the good coffee I used to drink in Finland! The coffee here is bad!
I’m going to the GYM at 9am this time I’ll be taking Iida with me to start taking swimming lessons there… She doesn’t even know it yet! I tried to teach her last year but what can I say; I’m a bad teacher!!
Emmi; I hope you and the girls had a blast last night!! I’m sure you all looked so beautiful!!! So did Omppu enjoy it?? She hasn’t been out for long time and I know she is amazing fun going out with! So did you wear the white top and the belt, or did you change it to green one??
I still have to work today from 4pm-8pm! I have a coloring to do at 4 and it might be taking me 2 hours with getting her hair ready because another hairdresser just messed up her hair!!!
So I’ll be home maybe 20 mins late for the F1 qualifications in Montreal, Canada! It’ll be starting at 8 so if I drive from work fast enough I’ll get home in 20min and that includes a stop to pick up Iida!!! Well I might even be lucky to get to watch it at my mum in law if Iida is there! Then I would miss just the first 10 mins!! GO KIMI!!! I hope you’re luck is better in this race!
Weld El-ma6aba; I hope you get to see it this week! 
It’s at 8 pm so you don’t have work excuses this week!
It’s just my time of the month that women just go koko!! I’m late and I hate it when I’m late! And I just make sure every ones life is a living hell around me too! I know it’s bad to do that, but it’s just how crazy I get!
So Yesterday, Monday; I was already feeling like shit, and driving to school in the morning… When my stupid car decides to break down! I was on the fourth gear going about 70-80 k/h and the machine just switched off! I was still moving and lucky I was close to place that I was able to park the car… I think if I didn’t have my friend Pavlina in front of me to get to the rescue I would have just thrown myself under a passing truck! I was just so pissed off!
So I get to school late after running with my friend to my garage to give them the key so they would go and pick it up and fix it! The school wasn’t bad, but just waiting for Stelios after school to come and pick me up was horrible!!!
He tells me the car should be ready tomorrow (that’s today) and I’ll be good to go… I used Stelios’ car for the rest of the day while he took my scooter… I have like 3 huge bags I have to carry around with me so I taking the scooter was out of the question!
So with all these crazy stupid things happening, I did such a horrible thing! I hurt a friend, with things I shouldn’t have said! My friend is not answering my emails anymore, and I don’t blame her/him!!! I hope if this friend gets to read this would forgive me and starts talking to me again! I love this friend so much, and respect her/him more than anyone could imagine!!! I’m so sorry for the horrible things I said, I want to take everything I said back!!! Please except my apologies!!
Today; my car wasn’t ready, I had to use Stelios’ car again, I’m still late, my very good friend is mad at me, I’ve been eating like a pig because I’m feeling low…. And Iida is punished for losing it again and has to stay home till next Sunday!!! And I can’t stop thinking of all this!!!!!
I really hope tomorrow is a better day!! I hope I’ll get it so my body would relax, I hope I wake up with an email from my friend, I hope my car won’t mess my life again, I hope and hope and hope!!!!!
