“Who said F1 is all about Metal, Oils, Amazing Cars and Fights For Podium??” Said Fabrizio “It’s also about Romance and love!” He gave me a big hug and congratulated me!!
He said that to me after Jo Bauer has just congratulated me in person.
21. April. 2013… Was the most perfect day in my last many years…
I was a Scrutineer For GP2 and observer and trainee for F1 Scrutineer which allowed me to get on the grid for the first time in my life while F1. I was in cloud 9 as they say… I was doing my job, but still overwhelmed and excited of my dream coming true and being there where the race will start in 15 minutes…
God I was not ready to find my love Ali Dadi pulling me for the 3rd time to Kimi Räikkönen’s car and stands in front of it. I was standing literally 75 cm from the Kimi Räikkönen’s car, while Kimi was behind me getting ready putting on his gear. When Ali Dadi held my hands “This is how it all started, this is what brought us together.” He Said… Then went down on one knee. “I love you and would love to spend the rest of my life with you!! Would you marry me?”
I was in shock. Totally blown away. Not sure how to feel. Excitement, Love, and Overwhelming feelings I didn’t know even existed in me! Tears falling out of my eyes… Couldn’t stop them… I SAID YES!!!
How can I say no if Charlie Whiting approved of my engagement before I did myself… Well I would have said yes even if no one else approved… But Charlie Whiting and Shaikh Salman Bin Isa helped in my approval even more!!! 
I would love to thank all friends, family, BIC staff, marshals and the whole FIA officials and personal that made my dreams come true on F1 Grid… In front of Kimi Räikkönen’s car…
I am no longer in cloud 9 I’m flying in cloud 12 very happy… I am not just getting married to the most amazing man in the world, but also spending my life around Metal, Oils, Amazing Cars and Fights For Podium, BUT ALSO Romance and love!!!
I was talking about love to a friend of mine.
After reading Brida by Paulo Coelho as I advised him 2 years ago, he seemed to be wondering about soul-mates. So he asked me of what I thought of it…
In my life, after Brida and few other books… I did get to a conclusion we have many soul mates. Some are meant to help you through few months, some for years and some for life time. And some to help you just for few days. Doesn’t mean they are not meant for you or they are not your soul-mate, it only means they were there for a reason in your life building and your life path.
Ali I love a lot. And yes I feel he is the one. He makes me smile. He knows to handle my difficult days and moments… and believe me I am SO DIFFICULT… When no one else in the world that I have met was able to do so.
He is 5.5 years younger than me, but I do not feel that. And to be honest I felt this way (or thought I did) towards someone else before who was some years older than me which my feelings lasted few months, and a man who was my age which my feelings lasted for around a year… So those two men came in different times where I was in need for them, to show me the path, to show me lessons and maybe to teach me about my own self! So their time passed. Doesn’t mean I stopped loving them but my love for them changed, they were not my soul-mate anymore.
Do I miss anyone from the past? Yeh sometimes I would miss something or someone, but would I leave Ali for that if I get the chance to have it back? My answer is still NO…
Every now and then someone passes, maybe reminds me of something I miss. Or gets me excited in a way or another… I take step back and think… This person is he worth loosing Ali for? The excitement he offers is it worth leaving my life and love for Ali… Answer still today comes to my head and it’s NO…
So maybe Ali is the final path in my relationship life for me… my lasting soul-mate… But do I believe beyond reasonable doubt that this will last forever??? NO… There is always a chance his time ends and I have some other soul mate to go another path with. Or he would have another soul-mate to another path with.
I’ll give you an example… My mum is married 3 times and divorced 3 times… Her sister (my Aunt) has been with her husband for 41 years… I asked my mum about my aunt’s secret and everyone else’s who lasts so long with one person as now I see my Ali’s parents. She told me that there is no such thing as easy path and unconditional love. There has been for sure someone younger, cuter, lovable, exciting or promising that has passed through both of their lives and paths… And if not someone passing through their lives it would be the difficulties that must have faced them through the way… She did not mean someone cheated nor had sex with someone else… But that they had to stop… they had to make the hard decision… Do I choose my long life partner, or this another life that looks more fun?? They chose… They had to choose one way!! They are still together shows what way they chose!!! Some people can’t continue together for some reasons, some people choose easy way out but that is their right to choose, we cannot force someone to live a life they did not choose!!
I am not good hiding my past so everyone knows who I am… I am loud, clumsy, a mess, and really difficult with my unbelievable mood swings… Ali loves me the way I am… He thinks my bad side is worth handling because my good side is worth keeping… And I think the same about him.
I think soul-mates… are partners that make you feel good for being WHO YOU ARE… Same time you love them for WHO THEY ARE…
I truly hope he is my for everlasting soul-mate!!
So they tell Ali how come… She was married before and had been in love before!!
And they tell me how come… you are not his first love!!!
I say… I met a man who I never intended to fall in love with. I don’t think it was his plan to fall in love with me either. I am not for his culture even if I understand it as my father’s families are Sheat Muslims. But end of the day I do not believe or follow their believes.
I am not sure why me when he have had such lovely women in his life. And he had many others available waiting for a sign from him to ask them out.
I fell for Ali’s family before meeting them, now that I have met them and actually moved in to live in the same house with his parents I have to say I was wrong… They are not at all as nice a wonderful and sweet as I thought THEY ARE MUCH BETTER AND SWEETER AND LOVING. They are AMAZING.
I met some cousins, which I like and I am actually going shopping tomorrow with one for sweets for my trip to Finland. I am happy with what I have chosen and what have come to my life after falling in love with Ali.
He will be joining Iida and me in our trip to Finland where he will love my family and friends. Hoping he will like them as I love his family and friends!
In the end of the day Being someone’s first love is great, but to be their LAST is beyond PERFECT!!
I can’t wait to see my mum, friends and family… only few days left and I will be breathing that air I missed!
But this time I’ll be with the man I love. Ali Dadi is joining Iida and me on this trip. So much in plan not sure what we can and can’t do in this short time we are there!
We are even visiting Sweden! How we will manage to do all what are planning to do!? 
I can’t wait for my mum to hug me!! I can’t wait to go out with Emmi!! I can’t wait to go for the Cruise to Sweden with Kerttu!!! I can’t wait to see my little niece and my sister Sara and talk about Bahrain!!! And now knowing we have family gatherings at my Aunt Anna-Liisa’s place made me so happy!!!
I hope Ali Dadi will love this trip. Hoping he will love my Family and friends! Well… I’m sure he will love everyone because he loves me!
A woman… Religious Muslim. Loving mother. Very hard-working.
A man… Also Religious Muslim. Strict Father but Deeply Caring. And also amazingly hard worker.
They got together many years ago and had together 7 Sons. Yeh that reminds me I never got to read the famous Finnish story (7 Brothers).
Ok back to my story. So these two people had 7 sons. Lived around the world raising them while father studying and working. But mainly their life has been in Bahrain, where the boys went to most years of their schools and grew up.
I have met personally 6 of those 7 and spoken to 5 of those 6 long conversations. I have to say I was shocked. I sued to think if you come from a religious Muslim family you would be against all other ways of living and other believes. But what I saw was respect. I saw educated MEN. Respectful and strong. All can take responsibilities and lay it over their shoulders with great strength.
Then came the day where I met the mother and father. And that was the day where I understood where did that respect, thinking, love and great personally came from.
The father was bit quite and studying me. But head high and great presence. He spoke little but meant a lot. What an educated man. I saw his respect even though he knew my life and believes are not the kind he would actually approve on for himself.
The mother was so sweet. Nice and loving. She kept showing love I don’t get unless from my own mother or my grandmother. She made even cry as I miss that feeling so badly.
This was when I really understood how it is not a religion… not a culture… not believes the name nor money that makes who you are… it all start with PARENTS!! And those two had my respect before meeting them… Had my good words every time they came to conversations… Got my admiration when ever I met one of their sons… And got my true pure love when I met them…
Their sons are lucky to have them. I push Ali even more to spend time with them even if it means not having him all for myself on my day off… And I keep reminding him to ask them if they need anything because I know when I ask their pride will always say no need for anything.
Ali… You are lucky!!!
This was written 2 days ago.. but as I got net today I was able to publish it today!
It’s your birthday again. Last year I had nothing but my heart and love to offer but I felt it was not enough.
This year I have bought you a watch… Iida and I bought you headphones… We got you cards… I bought you clothes… Planned a whole surprise dinner in Zoe… And planning to take you to movies day after with Iida… Still not enough!!
I love you and I’m so happy to have shared hard times with you… Good times… Boring times and exciting times… You make me smile like no one ever does. You make me relax like one ever was able to do. You make Iida happy and return she keeps reminding how amazing man you to make sure my love to you just would keep on growing.
I don’t think any money, any gifts or any words could describe how grateful I am to God to have given me you… I can’t explain how this world is lucky to have someone like you walking in it. So I will not say Happy Birthday to you… But I will say Congratulations world for having this day when Ali Dadi was born.
2012…
If this year is really bringing destruction, disasters and even the end of the world this is what I have to say.
I’m turning 34 this year.
I have a daughter that is healthy (enough), 3rd in her class even if it is first ever time for her studying in English and has missed a whole year before this, who speaks reads and writes 3 +1/2 (starting French) languages… Who is a wonderful young lady who helped me so much throughout her 12 years (13 this years)… Who I can speak to as a friend, as a daughter and as (my care taker) Sometimes, ex; when I’m sick.
I have found a man who I love so much. Who makes me feel like a little girl, like a woman, friend, wife and lover all at the same time! A man who makes me to get over my stress (which who ever knows me knows it’s impossible mission)… A man who finds the way to make me smile even when I’m getting my period (worst time of the month to talk to me)… A man who still can make me feel beautiful even when I have a bloated stomach (health problem I suffer from regularly)… A man who I can spend hours talking to with him listening to me and sharing opinions without trying to force his opinion on mine!
I have friends all around the world who actually love me and I love them. Friends that I do not have to ask daily or weekly about but when I need them they are there for me, and when they need me I’m there for them! They might not be more than 15 all together maybe not even 10… But they are real ones!
I have a family… maybe scattered in many countries, but I have family that I dearly love… Some talking to me some not (for past mistakes) but still I love them all. I have a mother that makes all the pain go away with a kiss. I have amazing brothers and sisters who all have grown up to be amazing adults that I am so proud of. I have a father that I hurt a lot for past reasons that I have asked for his forgiveness for the pain I caused him and tried to explain to him the reasons of the pain and anger towards him… That father might not be talking to me but I wish him all the happiness and health! And let’s not forget the rest of my family that always make me feel happy to hear from.
I have a job that I LOVE… I have been called actually a workaholic today. But I can’t help loving what I’m doing and of course the owner of this company is a man if ever needs a kidney I would take one out of me to give him as I think that man I owe him my life!
I have a long past that is full of action, pain, fun, sadness and happiness… Things I did wrong and said I was sorry for. And wrong things happened to me, which I have forgiven!
If this is the end of the world… I will leave this world sad for missing all these great things, but I have to admit I will leave with a smile that God has blessed me a wonderful life and great happiness!
Thank you GOD!
Ramadan, I’m tried; lack of sleep and what they said will be a quiet month at work seems to be one of the busiest.
I love my job… thought of saying that once again.
At last I will reveal out loud where I’m working. I am working now full time at Lilou Pattísseríe. It is amazing!
I am not allowed to say much without consulting the marketing manager but something I have to say is 7 years in food & beverages field I have never been more amazed of how far this field can go.
I started in May and then I got the comment from Ali Dadi that he has never seen me this excited and happy. Of course there are ups and downs as any job but I am truly happy! I enjoy being in kitchens again and for first time ever experiencing sweets… True I have never been a fan of sweets but it is so interesting. Tasting sometimes feels like a challenge specially if I had tasted 2 or 3 different kinds already, then I seem not to have any sense of taste. But I am happy to be able to do it, as Chef Samer (who is such an amazing and creative chef that I never thought I could meet in my life time) asks me to taste and asks for my opinion. So I think I’m doing ok tasting sweets!
There are of course the hot kitchens with all kind of pastas, stakes, Arabic, European, Asian and American kitchens (food)… God knows I could keep going on!
Iida is starting school in September and her birthday is that time, so big plans for her birthday! Hope she’ll have enough friends to invite!
Ali and I are still doing well… ups and downs, stress took us down few times specially with his job being such a pain the last 6 months. But we still survive and find the way in between the hard times to lay down in bed, joke and make love…
So
1 year and 1 month has passed since I moved to Bahrain. I am in love with Bahrain, with Ali, with my work and my little Iida… I guess that counts as a GOOD year! 
يوم سعيد .ليكن اليوم فاصل في ازمنتنا التي تتباهي بحركية موج التمرد .. الذي لن ينتصر نهائيا الا متى تانثت القيم والتصورات والعلامات …لانه في تانثها تحرير لها من ازمنة الدكورة التي قامت على قهر الانسان وعلى استعباده وفرض خنوعه وخضوعه… ليس يوما للاحتفال فقط بعيد المراة ..بل يوم لغرس قيم مناقضة لقيم التهميش ورفض لسلط ذكورة لم يشهد تاريخها سوى على ما اثقل البشرية بالدماء والنهب واللصوصية والولاءات الزائفة
Good day. May this day be the dividing point for our crisis that are being showed off with the insurgency and rebellion waves… Which will not have a complete win (or success) until the feminization of the values, the perceptions and the signs… Because with feminizing them it would set them free from the male and masculinity times that got to conquer humanity by slavering it and by applying on it the imposition of subservient (obedience) and surrender… It’s not just a day to celebrate the Women’s Day… But a day to implant values that contrasts the values of marginalization (subordinate) and to refuse male and masculine power that its history did not witness anything but the great pressure on humanity with blood, looting, larceny and false loyalties.
This was written by a friend who is an artist and writer. An Arab, Male, very Masculine and older than 40 years, Married. So not a woman nor a gay man has written this paragraph.
Is it… Is it true if feminizing the rules and the Arab world it would save them? Well… It might be a good idea to apply or at least to try as we did in Finland and many other countries including US and UK… It seems to be working there!
For what it’s worth… I am proud to be woman! I am Proud of being my mum’s daughter who is a great woman herself. And so proud to her mother’s grandchild as an amazing mother of three wonderful women that make our family stand and made other families stand through the years… Yes a family of women and I am so proud to be one of them!!! True thanks for my very few male cousins in the women’s family for adopting the feminine values we carried on… Thank you for being proud of our strength and thank you for respecting us throughout the years….
Happy Women’s Day… Be proud of being one!!!
