ME…. ONLY ABOUT ME….

Ok! I have to write this post 1 day before my 29^th birthday just because some readers seem to be questioning my ideas and way of living!

Yes I am half Kuwaiti and half Finnish! I was born and raised for my first 7 years in Finland by my mother! My dad was not really in the picture as my mum and he got divorced when I was at the age of 2! Happy 7 years! Full of love and good memories! My only real childhood memories!It was few months before my 7^th birthday when my dad was able to trick my mum and convince her to visit him when he was still studying in the USA! It was less that couple of weeks for my mum to wake up one morning and realize that my dad has kidnapped me and took me to live with him in Kuwait!

My next 15 years were spent in Kuwait! I studied and was very good at school; I grow up just to hate and wish the worst of what you could imagine towards the man who kidnapped me! He made sure I hated everything about him, about his religion and culture! I won’t go through details! I would just say when you want some one to believe in what you like you do not force it on them! If you want your child to his veggies you don’t force them in to his throat! You try to convince him with sweet smile and love that it’s the best thing to do and show how much you appreciate it when they do it!

Another thing is; you can’t say that some man or a woman is some one’s parent just because simply they were involved in a sexual intercourse and conceived the child! A parent; loves, gives advice and when you need them you find them there, who loves you no mater what you are or do! A parent is my mum! Who cried years and years for losing me, who took this strange woman and hugged her after 15 years and told her how much she loved her! Who worked hard to get to know her child all over again after all these years! My mum is a parent, because when I called her to tell her I’m pregnant; she just asked, but you are a baby, how did it happen! When I explained I was 20 and I just had sex and it just happened! She said; oh my sweet thing, I wish I could be there close to you to help you through it! THAT IS A PARENT!!!

Yes I did learn some good values from my years in Kuwait, none of them is thank to my father! I learned to be faithful to my friends! I appreciate life and freedom! To respect different cultures and ways of thinking! Learned about different religions! Yes good things I took with from Kuwait! I’m not argent because of my father putting me down through out the years! But then again I’m not low with self-esteem because my mum put me up through my first 7 years! I met good Kuwaitis! I met faithful men to their wives! I met loving couples even after 20 years of marriage! I learned how to drive! I had my motorbike accident with my friend driving on the gulf road! I had my first sexes and first boyfriends! I had my child! Yes Kuwait is not that bad! It’s actually a wonderful country with a lot of great people! But my bad luck was that the man who helped my mum in conceiving me was a horrible double faced self loving @%$#*&%!!!! Not my father!!!

About my daughter, the boyfriend that I got pregnant with helped me to get back to Finland and told me that he wasn’t ready for a child and asked me to tell her he was dead (which I never did)! But the day will come when I explain to my daughter what a good man he was!

Stelios is Iida’s father, she doesn’t even think of why did he come to her life late! As for me I have few good fathers in my life too! One of them is my sister’s father (Hannu)! He loves me as his own, he cares about my child maybe more than I do! He calles and emails me regularly to check if I’m doing well! He is so proud of me and clearly shows it to the world! So yes that is a parent!

I think I grow up to be a great strong woman! I know there are women that are a lot stronger than me, but I’m happy with what I became! I had so many men in my life, that when I met the right man, I knew it was the man I wanted to spend my whole life with (if I do get to spend it with someone)! I know what I want from life, which is not big houses, cars, maids, husband, money and children! I want life and freedom! I don’t believe in any religion even though I belong to the Orthodox Church in papers! I simply believe there is God but everything else is politics! I had the schooling to and the brain to be a doctor or engineer! Or as my Math teacher was asking me in Finland to consider being a mathematician! But I chose the career I wanted! Hairstyling! I love my life! I live my husband and daughter! I love my family and friends! Yes EMMI I love you as well! I am happy today with where I am!